Hey guys!
Sorry for not blogging in so long. I
simply wish I could fill all of you in on the happenings of my past 4-5
months, but it would just be way to much to write about. A few things
that I want to mention due to relevance of any future posts are the
following:
--- I set a goal for myself to train and run
a half marathon as a part of Team One Step. However, in the earlier
half of my training I suffered a hamstring strain and let me tell ya,
NOT FUN. The injury occurred July 8, 2012 and I was not pain free until
I started physical therapy the second week of August. This did not
leave me much time to finish training, considering the half was Sept 8,
and upon d/c from physical therapy, my PT cleared me to increase my
mileage .25 a week, which I have obeyed! :) To this point in time I am
up to 2.5 miles again (YAYYY!!!!!!! Not much, but when you are injured,
you would do anything to run just that much!) So of course, not running
my half that I had my heart set on was tough but I did not want/there
was no possible way, I could actually run this injury without being in
pain the entire time, and more than likely following up with another
injury that will set me back again for future events!
I
have definitely learned from that experience (of course) and now I am
taking steps to make sure I maintain every aspect of my life that is
relevant in allowing me to successfully complete future events. These
"aspects of my life" (nutrition, strength training, mentality,
stretching, listening to my body and taking injury prevention measures
(ice, heat, KT Tape, compression sleeves, etc) are not just things I do
for training, I say "of my life," because that's what they are... they
are a part of who I am and I don't just ignore them until they need to
become a priority. I learn from my mistakes and I consider my body to
be fragile, I feel that (literally) one wrong move may have a negative
outcome and may result in injury. Anyway, this was important to discuss
because for my new blog, which, hopefully can be linked within this
one, I will be focusing on Mind-Body Wellness/Training!! :) I hope to
interest you by blogging about the ups,downs, lessons, and future goals I
have in regards to my physical and mental training/conditioning.
-Alright, So now that I am back in training mode with no injuries (***hold my breath, knock on wood, fingers crossed***) I am about to get in "The Zone." I have registered to do the Sears Tower Stair Climb
in Chicago on NOVEMBER 4th!!!! I AM SOOO excited and anxious!!! Last
year I did the Aon Center "Step Up for Kids," 82 floor (?) climb. This
was my first and I was very proud of myself for my completion time. See
my Athlinks profile for results here: http://athlinks.com/racer/118538989
,based upon my time for the Aon Climb, I would like to set a goal for
myself to finish under 27:00 for the Sears. I love that last year was
my first year finally applying my dedication for fitness to actually
participating in timed events! I think I had always filled myself with
the fear that I was not well enough conditioned to complete such events
at a reasonable time so I never participated. Now, I feel like this is
something I owe to myself, it isn't to compete against others. It's to
reward myself for maintaining a healthy and active lifestyle, I love to
see my hard work and dedication pay off. These events make me challenge
myself to work to be a better me, I love having a goal to work towards,
and such races make me compete against myself. I love the quote: "I
don't stop when I'm tired, I stop when I'm done," this is how I feel
about workouts and it's that mentality that keeps me pushing my hardest
the entire time of an event. I want to over achieve the goals that I
have set out for myself, I have previously established times for my past
events, and now I am adding to that list as well as having my sights
set on setting new PR's!! :)
----REDEFINE YOUR IMPOSSIBLE!----
Alright, just gotta throw in another thing here
because it was the last post I had blogged about back in June. My
experience with the Chicago Nike Northside vs Southside 16" Softball
Game. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! I can honestly say I had the best 2 days ever that
week, it was by far one of, if not THEE coolest opportunities that I
have ever had the chance to be a part of! The first night I went up and
they just had me doing my thing at GSP Boxing Gym downtown Chicago.
They had recorded me doing my warm ups, stretching, hitting the bags,
and several drills that are a part of the Nike+ Training Drill Pack that
syncs with the Nike Lunar Hyper Workout training shoes. If you are a
fan of doing at home cardio drills, I strongly recommend purchasing a
pair of these shoes. I am literally DRIPPING sweat by the time I
finish, which reminds me, I need to start utilizing those
shoes/application again! So the next day we had the softball game, I
did not expect it to be nearly as large of an event as it turned out to
be! I thought it would just be a small pick up game with the two teams,
some Nike team members, a couple staff members from the company that
did the film production, AKA...Suite Partners, and of course A.J.
Pierzynski and the Northside's coach for the day, Johnny Knox. I walk
up to the field that we were playing at in Lincoln Park and I about
died. Tents, cameras, trailers, workers everywhere, banners, you name
it... of course quite, shy, little me did not expect an event this size
and I was just like, "what did I get myself into!?" LOL! But just an
overall AWESOME experience, I am sooo fortunate to meet some of the
people that God places into my life. Some have more significance than
others, yet they all play a role in my personal development. At this
event, along with the Nike staff, I also worked with Suite Partners, as I
had previously mentioned. It's so funny because I really don't know
them that well but to me, each person I met that day from their company
was beyond friendly, down to Earth, welcoming, fun, and just an overall
pleasure to work with and be around! I felt very empowered by this
experience, Nike and Suite Partners did a great job working together to
carry out such a fantastic event. In these 2 days, I felt like I
stepped made a major change in myself, I did things that I did not think
ever possible for me, I stepped outside of my comfort zone, I felt as
though a part of me just grew up and became more mature in the sense of
my future aspirations. Since this experience, I feel much more
empowered to make the things I dream of achieving someday into a
reality. I know now that nothing is out of reach and I am capable of
doing great things. Thank you for helping me to realize this, Nike!
<3
Soooo I thought I would share this video with y'all now! :)
Enjoy ~~~> Nike Video!! Here's the link in case that one does not work:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5IvxB-akT_A&feature=youtu.be
-- So now that you're a little more up to date on my life, I just want to invite you to continue following me as I begin working towards creating my new blog!
Thanks for reading guys, I really appreciate your time and interest in reading what I have to say.
<3
Kristin.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Hold Your Head High Beautiful.
Hey everyone!!
So sorry for going M.I.A. on my blog, hopefully I'll be able to gain some of you back! **fingers crossed!**
Hmm, soo what have I been up to this past month? For starters, I've had a huge writers block! I have been on a little mental vacation and have not really had really insightful things to write about. I've been very lethargic and have had a bit of brain fog and can't just put thoughts together in my head or organize all my priorities. This would then result in what would be a very meaningless blog posts, so be thankful I have not been writing! : P
I am so so so so happy and anxious to inform you all that I have been directly focusing on my fitness and nutrition lately though! This is the type of material that I have a passion for, along with my physical therapy degree as well, of course! What I'm getting at is that I have been focusing on these things for myself and for others also, why is this important to mention now you might ask? Well let me tell ya!
For a little over the past month I've been tossing around the idea of doing the Chicago Half Marathon and 5k on September 9, 2012!!! I officially decided to do it in May and now I am in the middle of a 14 week training and nutrition plan!!! YAYY!!!!! I am SOO excited to do this, the Children's Oncology Services Inc., One Step at a Time Camp that I volunteer for has a running team that will be participating in this event and I have decided to join their team in hopes of raising money for COSI, http://www.onestepcamp.org/ <-----CHECK IT OUT, this camp has had half of my heart for the past 4 years!!!! <3
Not only have I decided to run the Half Marathon but I have also been participating in a 1x/wk women's kickboxing class that will soon be 2x/wk starting in July!! This kickboxing class is down right intense! This isn't your YMCA or Rec. Center kickboxing, this is full out taped wrists, boxing gloves, bags, pads, tire flipping, bag hanging, plyometrics, combo throwing, kicking, etc for 1.5 pure muscle burning and sweat dripping hours! I love it, I'm dedicated to it and have the desire to get myself in the best shape possible! I love doing things like this because it is a challenge and I love making myself work hard and knowing that I won't quit until my workout is over!
My next big announcement is that through Twitter, @kCull_4, I participated in their #Northside vs #Southside Challenge last week to be eligible for a chance to play in a 16" softball game on 6-21 in Chicago where I will be coached by either Ryan Dempster or A.J. Pierzynski! Nike informed me on Wednesday that I was chosen and that I will be a player in that game.... can't watch to play for the #Southside, thanks ahead of time Coach Pierzynski!!! <3 WOOOO!!!! I'm sooo excited, I'm tellin' ya'll, the Nike Fuel Band is where it's at!!!!! Nike really scored some points in my book with this one!!! :)
Soooo OF COURSE all of these things make me soo proud of myself but the reason that it does really make me that much happier is because I look back at where I was with my life this exact time 3 months ago and I was a completely different person. Things were at a very low point, and thankfully I was able to pull myself through it with the support of others and look at me now. I would like to share some things that make me proud of my progress and make me realize and appreciate the opportunities that I have been blessed with....
friend:
So sorry for going M.I.A. on my blog, hopefully I'll be able to gain some of you back! **fingers crossed!**
Hmm, soo what have I been up to this past month? For starters, I've had a huge writers block! I have been on a little mental vacation and have not really had really insightful things to write about. I've been very lethargic and have had a bit of brain fog and can't just put thoughts together in my head or organize all my priorities. This would then result in what would be a very meaningless blog posts, so be thankful I have not been writing! : P
I am so so so so happy and anxious to inform you all that I have been directly focusing on my fitness and nutrition lately though! This is the type of material that I have a passion for, along with my physical therapy degree as well, of course! What I'm getting at is that I have been focusing on these things for myself and for others also, why is this important to mention now you might ask? Well let me tell ya!
For a little over the past month I've been tossing around the idea of doing the Chicago Half Marathon and 5k on September 9, 2012!!! I officially decided to do it in May and now I am in the middle of a 14 week training and nutrition plan!!! YAYY!!!!! I am SOO excited to do this, the Children's Oncology Services Inc., One Step at a Time Camp that I volunteer for has a running team that will be participating in this event and I have decided to join their team in hopes of raising money for COSI, http://www.onestepcamp.org/ <-----CHECK IT OUT, this camp has had half of my heart for the past 4 years!!!! <3
Not only have I decided to run the Half Marathon but I have also been participating in a 1x/wk women's kickboxing class that will soon be 2x/wk starting in July!! This kickboxing class is down right intense! This isn't your YMCA or Rec. Center kickboxing, this is full out taped wrists, boxing gloves, bags, pads, tire flipping, bag hanging, plyometrics, combo throwing, kicking, etc for 1.5 pure muscle burning and sweat dripping hours! I love it, I'm dedicated to it and have the desire to get myself in the best shape possible! I love doing things like this because it is a challenge and I love making myself work hard and knowing that I won't quit until my workout is over!
My next big announcement is that through Twitter, @kCull_4, I participated in their #Northside vs #Southside Challenge last week to be eligible for a chance to play in a 16" softball game on 6-21 in Chicago where I will be coached by either Ryan Dempster or A.J. Pierzynski! Nike informed me on Wednesday that I was chosen and that I will be a player in that game.... can't watch to play for the #Southside, thanks ahead of time Coach Pierzynski!!! <3 WOOOO!!!! I'm sooo excited, I'm tellin' ya'll, the Nike Fuel Band is where it's at!!!!! Nike really scored some points in my book with this one!!! :)
Soooo OF COURSE all of these things make me soo proud of myself but the reason that it does really make me that much happier is because I look back at where I was with my life this exact time 3 months ago and I was a completely different person. Things were at a very low point, and thankfully I was able to pull myself through it with the support of others and look at me now. I would like to share some things that make me proud of my progress and make me realize and appreciate the opportunities that I have been blessed with....
friend:
- how are you
- ive seen better days, how about yourself?
friend:
- who cares about me whats wrong!?
ME:
- it doesnt really matter
friend:
- okay just trying to help!
- Im sorry
ME:
- its kay
- theres really nothing to help with
friend:
- understandable
- hows everything else
ME
- honestly, it all sucks
- im quite the debbie downer, i wish i could tell you something im really happy about right now but i really cant..
- maybe the fact that i started working out again makes me kinda happy?
Why is this so important to share with you all? Because this is a direct conversation I had with a friend on March 19th, I love the part where I say "The fact that I started working out again makes me kinda happy?" I believe staying busy, active and focusing my negative energy in a different place helps me to establish the important things in my life and to maintain a sense of balance with my mental and emotional well-being! Looking at this makes me proud, yet it breaks my heart. This person is not who I am and I hate seeing myself at those low points. Over the course of time, I've been able to realize with the help of my psychiatrist, that my lows are abnormally low. This is where I lead into my depressed moods. I have been prescribed a medication, Celexa, that will help regulate that and my anxiety as well (hence the reason for my brain fog and lethargy!) So far I'm not noticing a huge change myself (I just want to stop feeling tired all the time) but my boss did mention to me that she loves seeing me so happy and that I seem so light and stress free now, perhaps because I'm on summer vacation as well too? But I am happy to say that I can not even remember the last time I needed to take a Xanax!!!! That is really great, I had no problem whatsoever coming off of it, but I was on a low dose so I DO NOT recommend anyone else do the same without your doctors guidance!
I want to close on this quote and advice that I received from a teacher during that same low point, I hope it is able to touch you as much as it did for me.
"You feel however you do, and that's OK. As long as you are safe, then that is all that matters. You are getting the help you need, so I am glad for that. It is really difficult to ask for help, so you have one of the hardest parts out of the way."
---cut other info out, then my teacher closed with this......---
***"I have been where you are. It gets better. Really."***
----And then I lost it. It's just so comforting to have someone who understands what your going through be there to tell you it will be okay. You might choose not to listen and believe them because you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel yet, but you just need to keep your head up and keep walking. It is there, whatever hard time you are currently facing is only temporary. It hurts bad, I know and its unfair that anyone should hurt the way you do, but please listen and trust me when I tell you to take it as a learning experience. You will grow from this and learn things about yourself. You will be able to take those learning experiences and use the knowledge that you've gained to in turn help others. I have faith in you and I know that it is just a rough patch, please realize that you can help yourself. Asking for others to help is not a weakness either, I am not ashamed to admit that I see a psychiatrist to help regulate what is going on with me, I'm not embarrassed to admit I take an anti-depressant/anxiety medicine. These are not weaknesses, this is me showing that I am strong enough to realize when I need additional help to take care of my well-being. Please don't be afraid to do the same if you feel you need to.
Love and Gratitude---
KC<3
Monday, May 21, 2012
Getting Lost on your Path
Hi everyone!
Sorry for my slack of posting!
I guess I've kind of been in a little bit of an inspirational writing slump, for a good reason though!! Although I do still have things that cause me anxiety, I am very happy to say that I do believe I've overcomed a large part of my anxiety which was what I centered my "Overcome Yourself" phrase around before. I really can't owe it to 'Mind Gym' enough for helping me to pull myself together and get my head where it needs to be.
For the past couple of months I've really been working to turn myself into more of an inner athlete. I've been getting very big into running and healthy eating which have both contributed towards a balance in my overall well-being. I'm paying more attention, yet trying not to obsess over my injuries/aches/pains as a result of my increased physical activity, but I am making sure that I do not push myself past my physical boundaries.
I think that becoming more involved and picking up extra hobbies and interests has also helped me to redirect my thoughts and focus more on the things I want to see myself doing. In case you have missed it, Instagram is developing to be a huge social/photo networking site. I'm sure there's a certain name for that stuff, but I can't recall it off the top of my head. Instagram, along with the awesomeness of the mega-pixels of my iPhone, have allowed me to experiment more with photography which I have always had an interest in, but never the tools that make it so easy. I've got Adobe PhotoShop 7.0 installed on my computer but, if you have ever used it, you know how overwhelming and complicated it can be to understand at first.
I can't get over how great of a day I had yesterday, for the smallest of reasons too. I started my day off in the Southwest suburbs of Chicago and worked my way up to the Northwest suburbs where I did some shopping and randomly thought about one of my best guy friends in the area and chatted and grabbed dinner with him. Overall, I couldn't have asked for much more to have gone well with my trip yesterday! For one, I got to see a great friend, secondly, my CHICAGO WHITE SOX SWEPT THE CUBBIES!!! (Sorry Cubs fan readers!) and third, I really just enjoy the time alone, I love to drive aimlessly and go wherever my little heart pleases, I love to get lost and discover the parts of Illinois that I may never see, I love finding my way back home with no directions and just ending up wherever I do along the way. I guess that's comparable to life right? Sometimes you find yourself traveling in the direction that you did not intend to go. You don't know where to road is going to take you, but you keep going on it until you are able to gain your sense of direction and get yourself back on the right path. Once your on that path again, unexpected detours or SERIOUSLY, bends in roads (that almost take you to Wisconsin, oops!) may come up. They might seem scary and you might look at it as being a longgggg way from home and from the path that you had originally wanted to be on, but you just go with it anyway. Eventually, maybe it took much longer than expected, you will find yourself back on a familiar path. Sometimes we have to go without a direction and it is up to ourselves to do what we will with what we are given. We may ask for help along the way, we may call up a parent or friend for directions or we may just keep going at it alone. Whatever option you choose to get back on the right track is what you need to do. Don't be afraid to ask for help when your lost, we've all done it. If you are lost and alone, and choose to find your way by yourself, just sit back and enjoy the ride, turn up the music and enjoy the scenery along the way, you may be there awhile but its a ride worth taking. Try to turn the negatives of your lost journey into positives! You can think about where you are, where you are going, and how you need to get there. It is a great time to refocus and take time to yourself to see where you are and what the world has to offer you!
HAPPY MONDAY EVERYONE!
Until next time----
KC<3
Sorry for my slack of posting!
I guess I've kind of been in a little bit of an inspirational writing slump, for a good reason though!! Although I do still have things that cause me anxiety, I am very happy to say that I do believe I've overcomed a large part of my anxiety which was what I centered my "Overcome Yourself" phrase around before. I really can't owe it to 'Mind Gym' enough for helping me to pull myself together and get my head where it needs to be.
For the past couple of months I've really been working to turn myself into more of an inner athlete. I've been getting very big into running and healthy eating which have both contributed towards a balance in my overall well-being. I'm paying more attention, yet trying not to obsess over my injuries/aches/pains as a result of my increased physical activity, but I am making sure that I do not push myself past my physical boundaries.
I think that becoming more involved and picking up extra hobbies and interests has also helped me to redirect my thoughts and focus more on the things I want to see myself doing. In case you have missed it, Instagram is developing to be a huge social/photo networking site. I'm sure there's a certain name for that stuff, but I can't recall it off the top of my head. Instagram, along with the awesomeness of the mega-pixels of my iPhone, have allowed me to experiment more with photography which I have always had an interest in, but never the tools that make it so easy. I've got Adobe PhotoShop 7.0 installed on my computer but, if you have ever used it, you know how overwhelming and complicated it can be to understand at first.
I can't get over how great of a day I had yesterday, for the smallest of reasons too. I started my day off in the Southwest suburbs of Chicago and worked my way up to the Northwest suburbs where I did some shopping and randomly thought about one of my best guy friends in the area and chatted and grabbed dinner with him. Overall, I couldn't have asked for much more to have gone well with my trip yesterday! For one, I got to see a great friend, secondly, my CHICAGO WHITE SOX SWEPT THE CUBBIES!!! (Sorry Cubs fan readers!) and third, I really just enjoy the time alone, I love to drive aimlessly and go wherever my little heart pleases, I love to get lost and discover the parts of Illinois that I may never see, I love finding my way back home with no directions and just ending up wherever I do along the way. I guess that's comparable to life right? Sometimes you find yourself traveling in the direction that you did not intend to go. You don't know where to road is going to take you, but you keep going on it until you are able to gain your sense of direction and get yourself back on the right path. Once your on that path again, unexpected detours or SERIOUSLY, bends in roads (that almost take you to Wisconsin, oops!) may come up. They might seem scary and you might look at it as being a longgggg way from home and from the path that you had originally wanted to be on, but you just go with it anyway. Eventually, maybe it took much longer than expected, you will find yourself back on a familiar path. Sometimes we have to go without a direction and it is up to ourselves to do what we will with what we are given. We may ask for help along the way, we may call up a parent or friend for directions or we may just keep going at it alone. Whatever option you choose to get back on the right track is what you need to do. Don't be afraid to ask for help when your lost, we've all done it. If you are lost and alone, and choose to find your way by yourself, just sit back and enjoy the ride, turn up the music and enjoy the scenery along the way, you may be there awhile but its a ride worth taking. Try to turn the negatives of your lost journey into positives! You can think about where you are, where you are going, and how you need to get there. It is a great time to refocus and take time to yourself to see where you are and what the world has to offer you!
HAPPY MONDAY EVERYONE!
Until next time----
KC<3
Monday, May 14, 2012
YOU Are Your Own Happiness, Your Relationship is NOT!
Hi guys!
Sorry I've been M.I.A. for so long! Finals are finally over and guess who kicked some butt on them? This girl! 3 A's and 2 B's. I worked sooo hard to study and get a B in one of the classes because I was border line B/C and I knew I was not going to settle for that and it was also a very important class to me for many reasons! Anyway, I am soooo happy and proud to say that I made it through my first year of Physical Therapy school! It's simply amazing, I have been working at this for so long and to actually see that my hard work is paying off and making progress is just beautiful! I have 2 more years of schooling left and I know it is going to fly by just as quickly. I can not wait to be out in the real world and actually applying what I have learned in my education to help others! I feel like I have become so much smarter in every aspect, I have been through the best and worst of times throughout the course of these past 5 years but I have rolled with the punches and I have stayed strong because I know where my focuses are and I will not lose sight of them!
Workouts have not been going so well. Aside from finals or work consuming my every free moment last week, I also went for a nice long run last Monday and to add to it we were practicing LE (lower extremity) testing on each other for a final, and I think I just pushed myself to hard, and also... in addition to a little tumble I had a few weeks ago in which I hurt my hip (iliopsoas) my body ended up just HATING me after my run. I took the rest of the week off due to the inability to walk (min. dorsiflexion) without pain in my left calf. I spent the entire week just icing, resting, elevating, and applying icy hot to my gastroc. I'm feeling much much much better this week, I have been seeing the chiropractor and he was able to stretch out my psoas for me and did some US on my calf which I believe benefited me greatly. I'm just in the dumps over it right now because not only am I packing on some weight.. but I- LOVE- TO- WORK-OUT/ RUN/ BE ACTIVE...soooo, when your hurt and you study this stuff everyday and you know about the kinetic chain and how a problem in one place may lead to problems else where to compensate... you reallllllyyy need to listen to your mind and what you know about healing and just trust yourself. You can't push your body past its limits, the body takes time to heal and you must be willing to let it do so!
So I'm really happy to say that I'm still doing really well on maintaining a positive perspective on my life, despite my small injuries! I am still on the right path and am trying very hard to acknowledge the negative influences in my life that will set back the personal progress that I am working to achieve.
One thing that I kind of had an "Ahhh-HA" moment about, which y'all may think I'm absolutely crazy for realizing and pointing out now, so feel free to shake your head and just say "Wow Kristin, you JUST realized this now???!!" But what I'm coming to terms with is that fact that YOU need to make yourself happy and not let other people influence your happiness. For so soo long I have just installed this idea in my mind that I need a boyfriend to complete my happiness, but truth is, you can't make someone else happy before you can make yourself happy. Very clique and heard of many many times, so I'm about 300 years too late for a copyright on that one! But honestly! Whether it be a boyfriend, a friend, a parent, a co-worker, a teacher or a counselor, whoever it may be... you cannot let them be in control of your happiness. One- they are not always going to be there for you, and what happens when they are not? You can not relapse and wonder how you are going to carry on and be happy now. They were in your life for a reason, and yes, they made you happy while they were there with the memories that you had established with them and the support, comfort, security, and love that they provided while they were there; however, they may have made you happy, but think about life before them or while they were not around. Were you happy still? Hopefully the answer is yes! I went through a really disappointing and miserable time for awhile over a break up. I sometimes sit and dread over it and like to make myself miserable by thinking about how I was so happy in it and where things went wrong and wished things would have turned out different. I always remind myself of how perfect everything seemed to be [problem #21234245....nothing is EVER perfect..and if it is.... you've got a problem...and in this case, my 'relationship' was what I had considered my real life fairytale! YIKES] I couldn't have asked for it all to work out any more perfectly, it was the life I could have seen myself living with a person I thought I could see myself being content with the rest of my life, but I was wrong. When you build up something too much too soon, your walls are often times than not destined to come crumbling down on you, especially when you believe that this person completes your ring of happiness. Your ring of happiness is completed SOLELY by YOU, not by someone else, don't ever let a good, temporary situation make you believe that it was what you needed to be absolutely happy.
I came up with a quote that is helping me to maintain the right path every time I think to look back at that relationship and say that it was what I needed to make me happy...... "I'm slowly learning that it's more important consider what you deserve over what you simply just want." In the case of that relationship, I was heartbroken over how it ended because I put it on a golden pedestal. Gold is always nice, but sometimes gold loses its value and does shine so bright anymore. Who doesn't want gold, or diamonds or something of high value? It's "really great" and others look at you with envy and wish they had the same and wonder how you got it and how they can get it. Gold looks great from the outside, but when it comes down to it, is gold what you really deserve or is it just what you really want? What about having millions and millions of penny's [a little unrealistic, but just go with it! ;) ] These ugly little copper coins have no value to anyone, we just pass them up on the street or toss them into a lake or fountain without second thought. These little penny's, if collected, could add up to one big reward of which you deserve. It might not look so great while its lying there, worn, and eroded on the road, however, the little things are what will add up and eventually make you happy. My point is, don't pass up the small things, such as the penny's, that come across your path; they may actually lead you to the same place that those diamonds or gold would have. Don't let the gold be the determinant of your happiness, your happiness is in fact, YOUR happiness, don't lose sight and get caught up in what you think you need to make you happy.
G'night everyone!
BTW, check out my Twitter... its easier to keep up with me on there for those days that I get to be too busy to update my blog!
--------> kCull_4
I also promised you a picture that I took earlier when I posted my blog this afternoon, so here it is.....
This is where I was hoping to post my entire blog from today, but I was running short on time, but it was a B-E-A-UTIFUL day out in Chicago today!! I cannnnnoooottttt hardly wait to move up there and live my life! 2 years, 2 years, 2 years!!! :)
G'night lovers!
<3
KC
Sorry I've been M.I.A. for so long! Finals are finally over and guess who kicked some butt on them? This girl! 3 A's and 2 B's. I worked sooo hard to study and get a B in one of the classes because I was border line B/C and I knew I was not going to settle for that and it was also a very important class to me for many reasons! Anyway, I am soooo happy and proud to say that I made it through my first year of Physical Therapy school! It's simply amazing, I have been working at this for so long and to actually see that my hard work is paying off and making progress is just beautiful! I have 2 more years of schooling left and I know it is going to fly by just as quickly. I can not wait to be out in the real world and actually applying what I have learned in my education to help others! I feel like I have become so much smarter in every aspect, I have been through the best and worst of times throughout the course of these past 5 years but I have rolled with the punches and I have stayed strong because I know where my focuses are and I will not lose sight of them!
Workouts have not been going so well. Aside from finals or work consuming my every free moment last week, I also went for a nice long run last Monday and to add to it we were practicing LE (lower extremity) testing on each other for a final, and I think I just pushed myself to hard, and also... in addition to a little tumble I had a few weeks ago in which I hurt my hip (iliopsoas) my body ended up just HATING me after my run. I took the rest of the week off due to the inability to walk (min. dorsiflexion) without pain in my left calf. I spent the entire week just icing, resting, elevating, and applying icy hot to my gastroc. I'm feeling much much much better this week, I have been seeing the chiropractor and he was able to stretch out my psoas for me and did some US on my calf which I believe benefited me greatly. I'm just in the dumps over it right now because not only am I packing on some weight.. but I- LOVE- TO- WORK-OUT/ RUN/ BE ACTIVE...soooo, when your hurt and you study this stuff everyday and you know about the kinetic chain and how a problem in one place may lead to problems else where to compensate... you reallllllyyy need to listen to your mind and what you know about healing and just trust yourself. You can't push your body past its limits, the body takes time to heal and you must be willing to let it do so!
So I'm really happy to say that I'm still doing really well on maintaining a positive perspective on my life, despite my small injuries! I am still on the right path and am trying very hard to acknowledge the negative influences in my life that will set back the personal progress that I am working to achieve.
One thing that I kind of had an "Ahhh-HA" moment about, which y'all may think I'm absolutely crazy for realizing and pointing out now, so feel free to shake your head and just say "Wow Kristin, you JUST realized this now???!!" But what I'm coming to terms with is that fact that YOU need to make yourself happy and not let other people influence your happiness. For so soo long I have just installed this idea in my mind that I need a boyfriend to complete my happiness, but truth is, you can't make someone else happy before you can make yourself happy. Very clique and heard of many many times, so I'm about 300 years too late for a copyright on that one! But honestly! Whether it be a boyfriend, a friend, a parent, a co-worker, a teacher or a counselor, whoever it may be... you cannot let them be in control of your happiness. One- they are not always going to be there for you, and what happens when they are not? You can not relapse and wonder how you are going to carry on and be happy now. They were in your life for a reason, and yes, they made you happy while they were there with the memories that you had established with them and the support, comfort, security, and love that they provided while they were there; however, they may have made you happy, but think about life before them or while they were not around. Were you happy still? Hopefully the answer is yes! I went through a really disappointing and miserable time for awhile over a break up. I sometimes sit and dread over it and like to make myself miserable by thinking about how I was so happy in it and where things went wrong and wished things would have turned out different. I always remind myself of how perfect everything seemed to be [problem #21234245....nothing is EVER perfect..and if it is.... you've got a problem...and in this case, my 'relationship' was what I had considered my real life fairytale! YIKES] I couldn't have asked for it all to work out any more perfectly, it was the life I could have seen myself living with a person I thought I could see myself being content with the rest of my life, but I was wrong. When you build up something too much too soon, your walls are often times than not destined to come crumbling down on you, especially when you believe that this person completes your ring of happiness. Your ring of happiness is completed SOLELY by YOU, not by someone else, don't ever let a good, temporary situation make you believe that it was what you needed to be absolutely happy.
I came up with a quote that is helping me to maintain the right path every time I think to look back at that relationship and say that it was what I needed to make me happy...... "I'm slowly learning that it's more important consider what you deserve over what you simply just want." In the case of that relationship, I was heartbroken over how it ended because I put it on a golden pedestal. Gold is always nice, but sometimes gold loses its value and does shine so bright anymore. Who doesn't want gold, or diamonds or something of high value? It's "really great" and others look at you with envy and wish they had the same and wonder how you got it and how they can get it. Gold looks great from the outside, but when it comes down to it, is gold what you really deserve or is it just what you really want? What about having millions and millions of penny's [a little unrealistic, but just go with it! ;) ] These ugly little copper coins have no value to anyone, we just pass them up on the street or toss them into a lake or fountain without second thought. These little penny's, if collected, could add up to one big reward of which you deserve. It might not look so great while its lying there, worn, and eroded on the road, however, the little things are what will add up and eventually make you happy. My point is, don't pass up the small things, such as the penny's, that come across your path; they may actually lead you to the same place that those diamonds or gold would have. Don't let the gold be the determinant of your happiness, your happiness is in fact, YOUR happiness, don't lose sight and get caught up in what you think you need to make you happy.
G'night everyone!
BTW, check out my Twitter... its easier to keep up with me on there for those days that I get to be too busy to update my blog!
--------> kCull_4
I also promised you a picture that I took earlier when I posted my blog this afternoon, so here it is.....
This is where I was hoping to post my entire blog from today, but I was running short on time, but it was a B-E-A-UTIFUL day out in Chicago today!! I cannnnnoooottttt hardly wait to move up there and live my life! 2 years, 2 years, 2 years!!! :)
G'night lovers!
<3
KC
I wish I could stay in this spot forever.
Hey guys!
I'm hanging out and enjoying the day up here in Chicago! It is beyond a beautiful day out and I wish you could enjoy the view with me that I have right now as I write this, I'll attach a picture later.
I need to make this post rather quickly because I need to head down to my appt with my rheumatologist that is at 2pm and lord knows it'll take me forever to get there with the city driving!!
I just wanted to let you know that I WILL update tonight with a post and share some things I've came to realize and experienced over the course of the past 2 weeks. Can't wait to update and I'll do it ASAP!
Hope you all enjoy this beautiful Monday!
<3
KC
Sunday, May 13, 2012
I'm back!!
Hey everyone!
Finals are over and I'm finally ready to start blogging again! I'm sorry for my absence but in that time I came up with some really great things that I can't wait to share! Hope you all have been doing great and I hope those of you that I lost over my week long break wil be joining me again!!
Im spending mother's day with my mother and grandmother right now though so I will be sure to update later tonight!
Happy mothers day to you all and I hope you are enjoying the beautiful day wherever you may be!!
With much gratitude!
KC<3
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